I Turned My Diagnosis Into a Triumphant Song
When I was 7 years old, I remember being rushed to the hospital. Shortly after, I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. It threw my world for a spin. How was a 7 year old supposed to take on such responsibility? It meant no more drinking soda; that's for sure! It meant no more spending the night at a friend's house without the fear of passing out from low blood sugar. BUMMER! It also meant I couldn't hang out at other people's houses without my mother tagging along. AWKWARD! It was a life changing experience, and I remember myself continuously whining, "I have to deal with this for the rest of my life!?"
Living with type 1 diabetes was like being thrown into a new universe. Being diabetic caused me to express my feelings in a new way. I turned to music. It was something I could use to express myself. I was probably 9 around the time I started writing two songs of my first album"Class Is Out" and "A Friend." The songs were from a kid's point of view, which wasn't too serious. I mentioned a few crushes, but it was mostly just having fun (10-year-old fun).
Now, music is a therapeutic thing. I am my own therapist. I remember writing one of my more recent songs, "Back to the Start," as a transition into growing up and see things in a different way. I was 13 and involved in a relationship that needed to go "back to the start," before it started falling apart.
On a very emotional Valentine's Day, I wrote my newest song, which will be coming out soon, called "Take Me Home." I sat in the single's corner the whole night at my school dance, waiting for a dance with "him," and he didn't even acknowledge that I was there. Music is that shoulder I can cry on; it's always been an outlet. Words become lyrics, and it takes you on a journey of storytelling. It takes me to another universe where I can express my feelings without being judged. It didn't make me feel different or like an outcast because of my disease. Music has always been there for me.
Now at age 15, it was like a whole new world of possibilities of what to write about. The whole diabetes thing is something I always forget. I don't see it as weird or different. I don't see it as there is something wrong with me. I see it as unique, and it makes me who I am as a person. Every day, I am faced with challenges but who isn't? People judge and make comments, and that's fine. I live my life, and I am learning not to let other people's opinions bother me. No matter what I do, look like or dress like, I can't please everyone, and why would I try?
In the end, I'm hoping for a cure from diabetes but also looking on the bright side, I'm really glad I got diagnosed because I never would've found my passion, the passion that I now live for: music.